Number Twelve

A letter to dad:

Hi Dad,
Things are going good. The kids are adjusting and Megan is working on her listening skills and Gabriel is working on his communication skills at school. We just had our 45 day review. I HAVE NOT BEEN LATE TO WORK!!!! And plan to keep it that way. Gabriel is 3 inches shorter than Meg but he weighs the same! I joined the gym, and so far I have only gone 8 times. I am trying to get into the routine but it is a process plus the classes are cool and I am still deciding what class works for me. My plan for Monday is to go once a day. I am washing the laundry. I have turned around the basement and cleaned it up (for the most part) so Chris has a place to be when he comes home. He will be home for a week then he is going back out on the road. Melissa and I went to the zoo on Saturday. I miss the Denver zoo!

Number Eleven

I woke up Tuesday morning and started my journey. I started at Illif and 225, at 9:30am after getting gas. Why there you ask? Well the entire time I lived in Colorado the only time I took 70 east was to go to the airport. And every morning driving to work I thought about taking east instead of west. It was surreal. That could have been because legally I was still drunk or it was my dream finally coming into fruition. I stopped in Accra, CO. There was a rest stop there. It was the last rest stop in CO.

I drove through Kansas on TWO tanks of gas! That is not including the first one. I averaged 28 miles per gallon. Wednesday afternoon I stopped in Missouri to visit my Aunt Lyn and Uncle Cleo who I have not seen in over 18 years. Then Thursday I stopped in Columbus’ OH to have breakfast with my grandmother and lunch with my grandfather. Whom I have not seen in almost 20 years. I was so full all I wanted to do was crawl back in bed. I speed up 91n to meet up with my brother on I80. I did get to stop in Grandpa’s Sweet Shoppe and Cheese Barn. I spent over $100 but I got mother’s day presents. After seeing Chris I decided to go home. I got in Saturday at 5:30 and crashed for two days!

The most I had to pay for gas was $3.55 a gal. in Clairion, PA. According to a local this was the cheapest place to buy gas in the whole area. In Boonton, NJ gas was $3.21. The first day I drove over 633 miles. Day two I only drove 200 miles. Day three I drove 621 miles. And day four I drove over 900 miles!!! My total trip was 2500 miles.

Number Ten

Well hello again,

A lot has happened in the past month. I have my car back, the kids are in school, the trial will be starting in 3 weeks, I met an old friend, lost a friend, started working, almost completed my four online classes, and have been ignoring Joe. I will spend the next few bloggs telling you about my trip, while telling you about the rest.

I got the money together to go get my car from CO early. My social worker suggested that I go as soon as possible and I did. In one week I was ready to go! I purchased a plane ticket on Easter Sunday for $180.00. On Jet Blue Airlines, 36" of leg room and an individual tv with XM radio, is the best way to fly!

I spent Sunday with my family, Easter dinner, cleaned out my car, and packed my car! I stayed at a hotel because Emmy had her birthday that day and I was not going to stay with Jen! We acted like nothing had ever happened. the next day I took a shower and realized I forgot my conditioner. I bought some when I went with Dad and Debbie to the BX exchange. I even got to look for hot guys on the base and trust me that was fun!!

I missed the kids when I got up that morning; but after the phone call in the car on the ride from the bx, I was glad they were in Rhode Island. After having lunch with my father and step mother. Dad and I hung out until 4:30 when I was officially late for my own going away party. I met up with Tanisha, Emm, Tanja, Kelin, Emm's room mate, and the bar tenders. I had a blast I was very out going. We went back to Emmy's house and smoked in her house she got contact high and she was so funny. she had the munchies, and she was very giggly. I slept next to her and she slept next to her gay roommate. LOL

letter (#9)

Letter Three:

Dear Joshua,

Hey you its me again,

Your mom told me about the classes I know it is hard for you to face what you have done. I don't imagine that, that is making the guilt you feel go away any time soon. You should know you can always talk to me. I always want to be your friend and you know you can write no matter what. I have no rules here they know that can't control me. I always have been a free spirit and always will be, you made me that way. You and I need to work out the whole kid thing not ANY of your relatives. I will come visit if that is what it takes but they will not. I brought them when we were on vacation I think that was very kind of me. Don't for one second think that I am not a bitch cuz you know I am. And when it comes to them there is no give and take! It is my way or no way and you have always known that from the day you met me. Anyway, you can't blame yourself for Gramma's death that really was not your fault. Yes You were pretty mean to her, yes you did instigate a lot between her and your mother, and yes you caused her great pain BUT YOU ARE NOT THE REASON SHE DIED!

well got to go I'll talk to you later. Aud